i found out that recently I have always dwell in the past.. Does that considered bad??? I really dunno.. I seldom have heart to heart talk with my all my frens unless they are extremely closed to me.. If I have named them, they will be less than 5 people.. However keeping all secrets to oneself is always a very difficult task.. It felt so uneasy and they just drive u crazy sometimes.. Most of the time, i will choose to handle problems I have alone because I learned that when problems come the best solution is that we can accept them personally.. Frens are truly too important to help us when we are upset.. They are always the key elements that keep us moving...
Try to have no true frens and u know what I mean.. My frens and my family members will always say this to me... "You are lucky because U have bunch of true frens which not everyone will have in their lives. So do not always take them for granted..". Yeah I didnt take them for granted, because I think this happened to me due to my attitude and the way I treat them.. I give my all to people I consider frens tho they are just new frens to me.. treating them nicely might seem to normal, but I treat them with whole-heartedly unless one day they break the trust I have to them.. In other words, from that point onwards they dun deserve my trust and it will be very hard to gain my trust anymore...
I came to understand that there are no easy things in this world.... One might say that, this is a piece of cake... Come on dudes, there are no such thing easy in this world... Try to kick so balls if u are not footballers.. U are gonna pant like u are gonna die... Try to solve some true mathematics questions and U will know that u are so tiny compared to the things U know.. What I am trying to say here is not to encourage u guys to belittle urself instead to know who u are and know where is ur standing.. There is no need to compared urself to others in order to feel comfort because U are doing things for the sake of urself not for OTHER people.. So why so care about others' opinion... I see a lot of people get upset because they got criticized by others or maybe failed to get agreement for what they do.. FUCK OFF man.. this ain't important...
What I wanna say here is to be urself and do not overlap urself to other.. U might get some opinion from others, but the final decision is urs.. Be confident because U can shine others not because U are scared of others... And finally learn to choose ur own path instead of becoming one's shadow... U will never see the light because only the one that leading will face the LIGHT..
stay focused.
Horace
