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Things will get right..

2011-07-08T19:09:00.000-07:00

haha. It's another free Saturday. I have attended my commencement and things turned up to be really happening. I thought my commencement might be boring as I expected my whole family will attend cut down to only parents and Dajie+ Yixin however my friends were all there. On the commencement day itself, my friends Kai Yee, XuShen and me attended the interview that will be screened live in the commencement hall. That was really an awesome experience. Hahaha, I cannot believe I shout out loud to the camera, "I LOVE MATHS". My gangs who watched the interview live laughed at the answers Xu sheng, Kai Yee and me gave. And we also have world huge of gangs with parents around to take pictures with and we ruled the UCC with our number.

We managed to take quite some pictures and those pictures were really nice and we grabbed the chance to take pictures with each other parents. Those feeling was indescribable. Flash of memories ran through my head with all the good, bad, sweet and sour experiences. Those were really precious memories that will remain and those memories are also the essence that shaped me. I have become who I am because I have entered University of Singapore. I am really glad to this University for giving me such experience and I really learned a lot throughout this few years.

I though I will not enjoy the commencement as I would because I did not do well in the study, ironically I was extremely happy because I have somehow gone through the hell of study that not everyone can have a chance to try. I have gone through the time where I need to study in the library just to struggle not to fail. Sitting down in front of the desk figuring out how to solve those FUCKING homework that in the end I submitted the solutions that earned me 0%. I have also gone through those time where guilty slammed me hard for not attending the lecture and I played the whole night just to realized the next morning that I was really tired and exhausted to wake up in the early morning. Even if I managed to wake up, I will sleep in the lecture theater for my sleepiness sake.

Those time that play 40%, hall 40% and study 20% was really fond. Now that I think of them I am smiling and I am having a goose bump. Such sweet sweet memories. If I were to choose again, I wont pick the same patch because the courage needed must be huge and perseverance needed to continue do so must be undying. Now that I have work I feel guilty even a slight slack that I choose to take. I feel irresponsible when I am not doing the things that I am supposed to do. I think the last few years in school really has given me a good view in doing things. I have learned and I have grown mature to do the right things. I am really happy for all the decision I have made and all the stupid and silly things that I have chosen to do. Be it alone or with my friends.

I do not wish to go back to school life like most of friends wished but I treasured those time because I think I only need such experience once. Just like marrying, I would only want to marry once with the one I wish to spend my life with.

In my University life, I would like to thanks several people that really gave deep impact to me throughout, they are my parents, my siblings, Audrey, Pupu, and my few swines and dogs friends. When I said swines and pigs friends, you should know I am referring to you right? haha

As for the 2 days trip in Singapore, it turned up to be a trip to babysit Yixin, the empress. She ruled and she is Kawaii and her laughter and smile killed me because she is too KAWAII.. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I do not care as she is too kawaii!!! As for the give from all the jie jie and Bao, I like the watch so much. =D

I remembered what my friend, Yong Sim told me. The scene still clear in my mind, on the way to the SRC padang when we were to compete in the rag, he suddenly told me he can see those horses come alive and will gallop in the RAG dag itself and that time I was really upset as I could not ensure those horses will gallop. At the very presentation minutes itself, I decided to put 3 operators up the float and the WEIGHT gave enough PRESSURE to move the horses. Just like Yong Sim told me, he saw those horses did not give up and they ran as energetically as they could in the competition. This has been like a story of "ENCHANTED" to me ever since. I believe in miracle and faith because my FRIENDS and FAMILY have never given up me.

I am contented

Horace on the Saturday with lots of gratitude.

Another WuLiao Day

2011-06-10T21:30:00.002-07:00

I have worked for almost 3 months. Time past in blink of eye. I remembered the process of hunting jobs was very demotivating and thanks to people around me, I got through the hard time. I believe no one can go through hardship alone easily because we need help and I believe this it is the same to others. It is always give and take and we must learn to give before take.

I remembered after my final semester I was very rebellious and wanted to do whatever that I wish and at the same time I did not want things get out of hands.Finally, I still managed to control myself however things still screwed up. I always made a lot of mistakes in my life and I tried hard to correct them immediately. Some mistakes are trivial and some are still haunting me untill today. So whenever I make decision I will have to think about the consequences since I had paid big enough for the previous mistakes.

I think life has it ups and downs- things come and goes just like that. I learned the most when I had my second girl in my life. I was not deserved to have such nice girl friend because I was not suitable for her and she gave me almost everything I have today. From her I learned to act instead of doing just talk. I was forced to the edge of emptiness and was then bounced back to propel and excel. I lived in sorrows and later learn to cherish more. All come with big opportunity cost which prolong for years. I really wanted to give a big thank to her. She has got what she deserved. Amazing girl in my life.

Later on, after I have gone through all the hardship with my friends and family around, I met my third girl. She was slow and childish. With not-so-solid reasons I started with her and things went very terrible at the beginning. I realized I committed to something I might not be able to handle. I was filled with difficult tasks by her and at times I did not really appreciate her but I still gave my best to do what I can. She loved me a lots and learned to compromise so that we can get together better. During this period I have a lots of struggles and at time I need to compromise and also I learn to live with her because I was expecting more. Times passed really fast and in 2 years time, she became a total different girl I knew at the beginning, of course that was without mentioning all the misunderstanding and big/small quarrels we had. I was calm most of the time and she got very emotional most of the time. I did not like to propose my feeling most of the time and she wanted me to propose most of the time. She likes surprise in term of material wise(like roses or picture drawn by me or a love letter) but I like to prepare event that got us spend time together. So much difference and we still got together for 2 years. There was huge compromises between us that keep us together.

After 2 years, we came to the end where we both agree on 1 thing- we are after different things. She gave me the most memorable birthday in my life compared to all the previous celebration and I understand 1 thing during the birthday. My subconscious wants me to settle down while myself, Horace wanted to do more before settle down. I had this dilemma for 3 months and I kept thinking of the solution and the answer for it.

The reasons that my subconscious wanted me to settle down was because when I felt hopeless- hunted for jobs for 2 months and went for multiple interviews but did not get through most of the time at the second interview, I need to have someone to rely on. My parents no longer near me and I have a feeling that I do not want to make them worry about me. I believe this must be man's ego. We all have this ego at different level and I happened to have much ego. I wanted someone to go through our voyage and achieve something together. I wanted someone to be there for me when I collapse even though I stood strong most of the time. Just that few moment when I need my girl to sit beside me and lend me support so that I can keep moving. I also had my best kiss in my life at my recent birthday. At that time I was very upset most of the time because problems kept occurring and I had to deal with my working life. I also need to handle my love life. I had my best surprise in my life when I came back from work, my girl was at my home with all my friends waiting for me to come back. I step to my house's front door and she was standing in front of the door and gave me a welcome kiss. I couldn't imagine any better scenario that could happen to me in my life. At that moment of time, I felt happiness and contented if there were anything to happen to me. All this reasons wanted me to settle down. I was really touched at the day of my birthday because all my hall's friends and house mates made the party so complete. Wx, Cs and Js prepared so much for me and kept me blind from all the preparation until the very end. I went to my room after having the welcome kiss by my girl and open my room's doors, I see my room was fully packed with all of them. I thanks all those who made my birthday so so memorable.

I had learned a lot and I know what to do when the same things happen to me again. I will treat them with heart and will make them last longer if not forever- my friends, my love, my family and my pets(LOLX).

My work in the first 3 months was not smooth and I got a lot of difficulty at most of the time and at time I really need someone to be by my side. I wish for that so much and I did not get what I wished. Today, without all I wanted to at my down time, I have gone through almost all of them. I am happy now and I am living a really good life everyday. I do not have time to do sports anymore but I tried my best to keep my diet and my health at good level. I also no longer able to afford to sleep late and slack so much because I have a lot of commitment to cope with. I am now contented and I will always move to seek for more.

I believe in this quotation more as I grow- If things are to be mine, they will. If things are not meant to be mine, they will not.

Horace-on the day when he need not attend work on Saturday

My respond towards my last blog

2011-05-07T22:47:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I just hate to write blog because it represent what I think at this moment. Somehow, I think writing blog can let me view my thinking and my own development from time to time. My blogs are not interesting and sometimes idiotic to read. But I am a fan of my own product. I was energetic and emotional of most time and became calm and tranquil at time just after 2 months. Things can really be chaotic and uncontrollable. So weird..

What I wanted, something that I believe with strong inspiration can be different. That was really something I really do not believe. I doubted myself and sat alone thinking what was actually happening and I sought for answer. As usual answer won't come to me so easily. I need more time and again I believe I need long period to get things under control.

I look around, I see friends who take things for granted and some friends who did not complain even he/she is in really hard situation. Those are not something easily solved problems. But they are taking the problem easy and dealt with them with patience and intelligence. These are something I really need to learn. There are really great people outside, for example my team manager who can multitask and still possessed great E.Q. Seniors who helped us without being asked for and etc.

What I am really feeling now can be related to my first year in University. What I have used to for few years back changed drastically when I moved to next stage. Just like I was very used to my life in my hometown for many years were to changed to a place so strange to me and yet I need to survive alone with all the support and my loved ones not with me. I still remembered that feeling almost put me in hell. Great great depression stacked with the feeling of helpless. For that, I remembered I made a brilliant move and shifted to hall. A place that drag me out of the edge of helplessness. A place where people are so united and helpful. A place where I can apportion my attention to other things and understand there are more to cherish than the sadness that hunted me.

Also there was the place I achieved some success and did some silly mistakes.

I just watched the movie "13 going on 30" and that enlightened me a lot. Remember not to listen to music when one is not in the mood because the lyrics can means more than usual. Lyrics can make someone sad, it is the same to movie. The moral of the movie can bring greater impact than usual. I watched this movie last year and I do not felt I what I feel just now. That was something I knew long ago. I think there are things I need to let go and move on.

Tomorrow will be better =D

Horace

the year of 2011

2011-02-11T01:52:00.001-08:00

I have been wanted to write a blog for very long and yet I dun have time to write down. Finally got some time to sit down and write something.

Been graduated 1 month and still finding job. Things seem like not going smoothly but I believe if I dun get nervous sooner or later I will get job. Sometimes my feeling really toy me big time because I dun really wanted to work but playing while everyone doing their stuffs makes me feel useless. I hope things can be much simpler. If things going they way I wanted then I might be working in 2 weeks time. I dun know what is the feeling of earning money because to me spending parents' money has been my culture since I was born.

Still remember last time when I was young, I used to keen in working and earn some money because I can buy things myself. However back in those time, daddy used to disallow me work and further with giving me money if i insisted. I dunno if that was good for me but I definitely enjoyed my life all the way until today in my own way. If only I was allowed to work and learn more than I knew I might not be able to be who I am now. I might be mingled with people that ruin my life, I might look things at different perspective at very young age. NO! I think developing a principle too young might be bad, cos I might be too inexperienced that time and clenching on a not-so-good principle might mold a different Horace. I am still glad to all that happened to me.

I used to shout at my friends and tell them that they are wrong with my limited knowledge and now I still disagree with some of my friends but I dun really tell them and shout at them if not necessary. I find it very annoying when I cannot voice my heart especially to my good friends. They are walking a path that not leading to good, at least that is what I see. I just shut my mouth so that I prevent unwanted situation to occur and I believe all my friends around are showing improvement in their worst sides.

Another thing that really be discussed whole day is when there is a clash in principles. I really think there is not much to be discussed when 2 different people who are holding different conviction are to come to a conclusion points. It will be just a waste of time and furthering this just make a friendship to be worsen. Of course there are few exception like my friends and I. I realized if really there are 1 who can really exchange experience in a peace way, we can understand other more and of course we tolerate more as we know the core reasons for why things happened to him/her or to us.

As for Chinese New Year, things have been very interesting and I enjoyed it a lot. This year with unusual expectation, I am contented with all the activities that was held throughout. No gamble and computer games this year and yet I am busy with activities- from official to unofficial. 1 thing that really make feel extremely satisfied was when KS and me visited WK's house. That freak WK wasn't around and left his parents around in his home. Visiting his parents really enlightened me 2 things. Firstly the real meaning of CNY, that is to visit each other who you think important and secondly to get blessed by them. I was so stupid to believe that CNY is to enjoy ourselves and ignore the rest. Back in last time I used to gamble a lot and spend most of time doing shits. While this year things are really different. Maybe I have played enough and I am finally ready to do things differently.

Hopefully next year CNY we can organize a trip to somewhere with all mt good friends since we can afford the trip. Annual activities seem to be changing gradually and I really do like the changes. People complaint CNY is for children and not for adults. Then I am stupid enough to believe I will be child forever because I dun want to be sad even for a split second. I want to fulfill my dream.

Horace in 11022011
(what a good date =D)

Soon I will be uncle.

2010-09-06T03:28:00.000-07:00

My eldest sister is giving birth soon.. I dunno that this feeling can be this great.. I am looking forward to see my niece/nephew.. Of course I am feeling happy for my parents the most.. I can imagine how happy are my parents who will soon be grandpa and grandma..

Raising up children are not easy.. Just looking at myself is already a very good example.. I always give my parents problems up till today... Be is deliberately or accidentally, we are constantly worrying our parents.. I didnt know this feeling till I study oversea.. Staying with parents is simply too nice to be.. We tend to push all the problems to them.. They are more than willing to solve our problems up till we realised that they are not beside us, we will(at least me) start to see how important they are... Just after all the shits they have gone throu they finally receive some awards from their doing.. We son/daughter of our parents are always be their most valuable assets and what make them more rich is when we make them grandpa and grandma..

As much as my parents, I feel great excitement for being part of my sister happiness.. I am looking forward this holiday to see my cute niece/nephew..

People say, when we have our families then we tend to be more mature.. I think I start to understand this throu the fact that I am to be uncle..

Horace... U are promoted..

Guide to the path!!

2010-08-18T10:27:00.000-07:00

Like most of the cases, if not handle properly, the consequences can be disastrous. Or sometimes domino effect will follows. I choose to tackle the prob at all will to make sure things doest grow to the extend which is uncontrollable..

Things will be hard but it worth a shot. I will not do the same exact mistakes that I made.. No more costly mistake for me.. I treasure small small things that I have in my life.. It might be so tiny that people dun think they are worthy, but I choose to believe in what I think valuable.

Things will get better if we think positively.. Or more famous known as "good things always follow those who are posimistic".. One important, wrong term I used when I first held a great responsible as C.Engineer..

keep moving,
Horace

I know what I am doing!!

2010-08-17T04:42:00.000-07:00

There are always decisions to make, be it a good decision or bad decision.. It does not come with good consequences with good decision and vise versa. I am aware that sometimes decision is very hard to make especially those involve not only ourselves but others. So whenever this situation happens, we are tend to drag and drag or trying our best to make the situation good.. This isnt a bad way to do, however when the outcome is clear, although tough, action must be taken.

I have made a very big decision over one problem that I consider huge. This decision might not seem good for others, but I think for a better future and other aspects this will definitely be best for both parties.. I am a selfish person, I do not want to lose a friend that I cherish so I always do my best to keep them.. This has been my principles of life since I learn friends are one of my most invaluable assets. I want to remember today as one of important dates in my life.. 8/17.

There are plenty of problems for me to tackle because I am at the verge of inter-phase.. Just hope that I will be okie because at this point I am clueless about what I really wanna be..

I believe if we are positive, things will get better.
Horace

zxcvbnm87

2010-05-01T01:55:00.000-07:00

i found out that recently I have always dwell in the past.. Does that considered bad??? I really dunno.. I seldom have heart to heart talk with my all my frens unless they are extremely closed to me.. If I have named them, they will be less than 5 people.. However keeping all secrets to oneself is always a very difficult task.. It felt so uneasy and they just drive u crazy sometimes.. Most of the time, i will choose to handle problems I have alone because I learned that when problems come the best solution is that we can accept them personally.. Frens are truly too important to help us when we are upset.. They are always the key elements that keep us moving...

Try to have no true frens and u know what I mean.. My frens and my family members will always say this to me... "You are lucky because U have bunch of true frens which not everyone will have in their lives. So do not always take them for granted..". Yeah I didnt take them for granted, because I think this happened to me due to my attitude and the way I treat them.. I give my all to people I consider frens tho they are just new frens to me.. treating them nicely might seem to normal, but I treat them with whole-heartedly unless one day they break the trust I have to them.. In other words, from that point onwards they dun deserve my trust and it will be very hard to gain my trust anymore...

I came to understand that there are no easy things in this world.... One might say that, this is a piece of cake... Come on dudes, there are no such thing easy in this world... Try to kick so balls if u are not footballers.. U are gonna pant like u are gonna die... Try to solve some true mathematics questions and U will know that u are so tiny compared to the things U know.. What I am trying to say here is not to encourage u guys to belittle urself instead to know who u are and know where is ur standing.. There is no need to compared urself to others in order to feel comfort because U are doing things for the sake of urself not for OTHER people.. So why so care about others' opinion... I see a lot of people get upset because they got criticized by others or maybe failed to get agreement for what they do.. FUCK OFF man.. this ain't important...

What I wanna say here is to be urself and do not overlap urself to other.. U might get some opinion from others, but the final decision is urs.. Be confident because U can shine others not because U are scared of others... And finally learn to choose ur own path instead of becoming one's shadow... U will never see the light because only the one that leading will face the LIGHT..

stay focused.
Horace

我的恋爱一周年纪念日

2010-02-19T06:48:00.000-08:00

今年的二月一日是我和我的女朋友的恋爱一周年纪念日。上完课过后，我就去找她，她很漂亮。

我跟她去吃意大利餐，那里的牛扒很好吃。吃完后，我们去“Clarke Quay"的河边坐。在那儿，我们买了两瓶啤酒。我们一边喝啤酒一边讲话，那个感觉很好。我们在那儿坐到十二点晚上。

然后，我们回到宿舍。我送她一条项链，她送我一个杯子。她说一个杯子是一辈子的意思，我很高兴，我希望我们可以在一起到永远。

new words.
恋爱（lian ai) = love
纪念日(ji nian ri) = anniversary
完 (wan) = finish
过后 (guo hou) = after
牛扒(niu pa) = beef steak
河边 (he bian) = river side
一边 (yi bian) = while
一条项链 (yi tiao xiang lian) = one neklace
一辈子 (yi bei zi) = forever
希望 (xi wang) = hope
永远 (yong yuan) = forever

Feeling before the last paper

2009-11-29T01:53:00.000-08:00

I am now in library and refuse to study. maybe its because most of the papers have down... I spent 1 hour looking through SMM result(dota competition) and realized that my favorite team couldn't make it even in the early stage.. It make me more sick when I read the comments saying how SUCK is MYM... Just to kill some time before i continue to prepare for my last paper....

I just decided not to go for walk and travel because its too expensive... Kinda disappointed... But i think I will come up with another planning... Its still undecided now but I am sure that it is not a big concern cos there must be something to do when the time comes....

Aside from studying from my last paper I am actually thinking what I can do for this holiday.. LOLOLOL... At first we all agreed on going for a vacation but AGAIN due to the expensive fare the trip cannot be proceed...

Another thing that pisses me off is my weight.. I have gained 4 Kg after I got my knee injured.. I couldn't run, play soccer and exam period really kill me hard... So this holiday putting down weight is a necessary... Hope my stupid knee dun give me so much trouble...

I started to play maple again together with my GF.. I have nv realized maple can be so relaxing.. After stuff in so many things inside my brain, I can nv sleep and maple help to relax my mind and get me to sleep.... There are new characters in Maple 2 and they are Knight of Cynus... Not bad to play and things changed so much.. Those scrolls that sold for 2 millions last time are selling at 20 millions now.. Inflation does happens.. haha.... So now training for chief Bandit isn't a problem anymore cos the money problem solved... I also got myself another character, that is a Striker.. Quite cool with extreme mode of savage blow at 3rd job together with critical... Cool!!!

Exam period is always the period where I get pissed of easily... Recently I am easily frustrated and luckily I was able to hold my temper.. Nv think of a day like now where I got PMS... Maybe I am getting old d and all the elderly symptoms started to surface..

For my brothers outside must think that I have ignored them.. I guess especially to teik, Kar Ooi, Maumin, and teong.. Lolx. I have always been afk cos I really too playful as u all know.. Again i dun think this holiday we are metting each other.. And even the next holiday it will be hard for us to meet since we have different timetables to go..
SO i look forward to Chinese New Year where everyone can gather (I hope we can gather at my place again this coming year) and win some of my money.. I have lost money for 5 years consecutively and its have been my culture to host the gamble and to spread out my earning from angpaos to everyone.. So make sure those who read this attend my house as usual.. lololol... Maybe can let me win some of my losing this coming year =D

I will be back to TI by 7th Dec... So call me up for yam char k?
See ya guys...

Best wishes.
Horace

Phases 2

2009-09-06T05:46:00.000-07:00

pai seh . just now i have to rush for my dinner with my friends in hall. So basically this is the continuation of the blog just now.... I do not have enough for the blog just now because there are still plenty that I wanna share...

Life is always changing from time to time.... still remember that Chris Paccolat who came here for 1 year has gone back to his own country... 1 year can be a blink of eye... I am certain it is so because we really do all kind of shits together.. Hope that he can come back to visit us when he is free or maybe I can go and kick his ass in his country.... wish u and caroline are doing very fine over there and most importantly must enjoy yourselves..

To my ai ren, I wont leave u behind and forget to mention u because u are my captain cum ai ren.... I think u are extremely lovely this semester because you always so crap and we did a good job in persuading HOr Bor in !@#$%^&*( with @#$%^&*......... Though we may have failed, but as long as the committee is there, we will not give up this comm... I believe 1 day , we will definitely make this comm the best comm in Shearesss..... By the way, all the stupid ideas suggested by Seafood, u and me were really funny.. Must not forget the epic idea where one has to SHOUT " CHAU ARGHHH" to avoid some heavy responsibilty..... So it has been decided that we will buy @#$%^&* for his Birthday(NI HAO MA)..... Sorry for the alien language used.... For more info U can ask me face to face...... consultation fee will be charged.....

About myself... I got the best room in sheares block C..... It is so cooling and has the best scenery although I can only see lots of lighting from my window.. however just adjacent my room ,there is a pantry with all the equipment... Also , the is a rooftop with open roof.... wow it is best to enjoy beers and for talk cock session..... I have retired from all the tiring posts like SET IC.... Freak it.... CCB..... Pui!!! So wat else I can complain.. I almost find nothing to complain about.... However, I am getting fatter because I skipped exercise for a week.. Wat the hell... CHAU ARGHHHH fat and oil....

Unfortunately , I wanna complain that there is a mosquito biting me now and I am very irritated by it because I cannot catch it.... If i catch it, i will make sure I sodomize its ass with drumstick and then put it inside hot water and then put salt of its ass.... CB mosquito dun spoil my mood........ ArGHHHHHHHHHHH.......... Okie ba... since that stupid mosquito spoil
my mood, I am going to shower ler and I will kill it later... Wohihihihihihihihih......

Horace Bar Yong Lee~

Phases..

2009-09-06T01:47:00.000-07:00

My small little junior has motivated me to write down something about what happened around me recently....Life has been so satisfying and i really enjoy myself to the max. However life is not about myself and life without all the spices wouldn't be interesting though.

Before anything, let me tell something about my RAG experience that seem quite a while ago yet it seem like yesterday. What exactly that I want to achieve in RAG. I asked myself a question: Why u wanna be C.Enginner ? And i answered to myself as usual, because I want to give another damn try to rag and of course because I do not want to regret this golden opportunity where we can win those freaking shields back.... So do i regret with my decision to join RAG? My answer is: Once I make a decision, no matter its good or bad , I will take it.... And it turned out to be not bad ..... Hiaxxxx.... A bit disappointed that we couldn't win some shields.... However, the result is just some consolation, what we learned matters..... Shits that we went through matter..... Laughter that we had matters... I think I wont join RAG anymore because I have already given a good fight and I have no regret for what I have done.... Really GOOD JOB to all the retards who join RAG.... I always call raggers retards because I think Rag really too much for a ordinary persons... And of course I wish to shout out loud that Horace is a goddamn RETARD..... *sigh*... Sigh because finally I dun have to endure all the sleepless night that kills me..... Humans always learn more and appreciate more after they gone through shits..... Let me share about my friends problems..

My friend or more accurately my junior.... I have long never see such a kid that think like me when I was 10.. I am always attracted by people who are quite similar with my pass.... He always like to judge thing based on his own experiences and summarize things.... This is not really correct because things are not always that bad.... We think it is bad because we have expectation... Even if really things did not turn out to be like what expected, we should not disappoint because remember that life is always a long long journey.... If today we cannot make it, then next time.. If next time still cannot, there is always another time..... This is just like what my kinder-garden's teacher told me... She said this to me: If you are stupid then read few more times.. Do not care about others who can understand by reading it once.... We do not compare because we are not to be compared... We are we.. Each individual is unique..... So my junior out there, I really hope that you can get my message here... hahaha...... I learn this quote before I primary 1 and I truly understand this not until I freaking faced some big shit... So do not feel disappointed..... And yeah, my sister always said: Do not cry because it is over, but smile because it happened to you....... And i freaking agree with this statement..... :)

Of course to my another junior who faced relationship problem.... Which guy in this earth does not face this problem.... but we homo-sapien with DICK should accept shits with open arm... If it is your decision then I will fully support you.... because I respect who you are.... Like who you are..... Go on with the current situation though it might be hard.... If really you are uncertain, YOU have my full support...... :)

To my good friends, I am sorry that I never keep in touch with u guys frequently... but but really really you guys are in my heart.... Hopefully we will meet up this CNY and enjoy the day and night together... Surely it will be damn nice..... One of friend always say: If we really have true friends, what if the world goes to it end? At least we tasted the best thing in this world... hahaha... I hope everyone out there is doing fine.... You guys are my life-long nakama... kishishishi.....

My friends here in NUS.. Of course I am having a good time with them... If we are living so near and we never grab this fucking chance to enjoy the time together.... Lightning will strike me..... wahahhahah.... guess lightning wont strike me because I am certain that all of us really enjoy the time together so much..... wohhohohohoho.....

Lastly to my noob girlfriend.. hope that this half a year is really some time for you to know me well... of course u wont be able to know me well enough because there are too many things that you need to explore... hahahhahaha.. surprises are always hidden.. Am I right? Heard that u cut ur hair today ler... Quite excited to know how u look like.... PLS PLS.. dun look noob... if not i will make sure I call u noobie always..... CHEE NOOB... wahahhahahaha..... For my friends out there, I know u guys are excited to see how she looks like,... Trust me, U will be surprised because she is extremely stupid.... But I love her so much ...

Thats all peeps..

catch up with me next time... woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow

Incandescene

2009-08-18T04:39:00.000-07:00

latest update!!

2009-03-03T00:53:00.001-08:00

Announcement!! The nicknames of the month!

Yong Lun aka Mr Hor Boh

Lee Long aka The kangaroo

Alvin Ang aka Mr DH

Jason Lau aka Mr Chau

Chee Mei aka CM(crystal Maiden)

Horace aka Meepok(meepo)

kai jia aka KKJ(kai kai jia)

Zhen Lin aka rocker

Yee Voon aka Xiao Zhu

Bei En aka Belan

Chris pacco aka The Hulk

Min Woo aka Kimchi

Alex TTY aka JiDan

Ming Zhe aka Da M

Matt aka xiao M

Swee foo aka Seafood

Horace~

Weird0!!!

2009-03-01T01:56:00.000-08:00

some strange stories happened around recently.
1. there are 2 alphabets surfaced in block C recently and they are "da M" and "xiao M". Da M = ming zhe and xiao M=matt. They are basically the most sexy M guys in lv 4. Try to witness their sexiness if u are free to come over block C lv 4. :)

2. I asked my gf a question: An archer shoots an arrow to the gorilla and the gorilla successfully cathces the arrow. However in the end , the gorilla dies. Why ar?
SHE answered: Because the gorilla hold the arrow and punches himself. Barbar black sheep. bar bar stupid . bar bar bar. ( I personally think that this is an excellent answer. Awesome!! But she think for 3 days before she got the answer. )

3. love bite happened around in block C recently. our singer "Andy Lau hau lian" got 2 love bites from KR's girl. He was so proud of his curry chicken/strawberries and claimed that he will bring down the belt curve for the module he is taking. How ar? He said those students sitting to his left and right will be distracted by his curry chicken and wont be able to concentrate in answering the paper. (and I said, pls take the same module as I am taking and allow me to sit far far away from him )

4.Yeah, its officially decided that my second pet will be rabbit. Are u happy with the answer
let me reannounce here: eldest pet: watermelon 2nd pet:rabbit 3rd pet:kangaroo

5.I would like to take apportunity to advertise to those who read my blog about the Block C incoming event, NO77S(nite of 77 stars). I will assure u that it will be exciting and fun to watch. Pls support us...

A bastard?

2009-01-23T03:29:00.000-08:00

What is the precise definition of Bastard?

1)Is it pee-ing at the public area considered bastard?
~Friday morning at about 2 am at SRC, there were a group of bastards pee-ing in a row. There were Darius, Qing Wei, Me, Damien, Terrence and Benedict. It was kinda cool to have done this in a group. So for me, this is what we call nature because before toilet was invented humans used to settle thier problem everywhere. So who cares if we dirty the area, but I would say WE fertilize the soil there. We have done something good. @@

2)Bojio a sin?
Here comes the issue in our hall especially in block C. "Bojio" has been very frequently heard in block C. This word is not only heard when YOU nv invite them for dinner or maybe breakfast or lunch but also when you nv invite them to SHOWER TOGETHER, DO BUSINESS TOGETHER or maybe WATCH DOCUMENTARY TOGETHER.
I would say the one who raised this issue is the bastard. =.= (yeah I am refering to you SEAFOOD)

3)Too playful and not being serious at all time a bastard?
NO i dun agree. They are actually nice and awesome. This is because block C guys are all like that. Am i right? Pls prove me right. :)

Horace~

What is so great about my Hall(namely Sheares Hall)

2009-01-21T10:15:00.000-08:00

What is so great about my Hall?

1. Sheares Hall is a family hall. I am not saying other halls are not, but Shearites always welcome newcomers with open arm and that was the reason why i was attracted by this hall. I have a journey from PGP to Sheares Hall which I think is part of fantastic experience in my life.

2.Shearites are passionate. They just being too rock. You must witness with ur own eyes.

3.The girls in Sheares are really girls. (I dun mean to offend other halls, but I can see those soccer girls from other halls are like guys and I doubt I will lose to them 1 v 1 if there is a fight. )

4.The supper is extremely superb. CHEAP and worth it. Uncle Vincent service is of 1st class standard.

5.The sport teams in Sheares Hall are really ZAI. We are currently no 2 in overall and 1st for guy category for IHG. What can i say? Team Sheares so ZAI.

6.There are a lot of cute people here. Like my 3 pets (Js, Yl and LL). They are extremely cute and with them around , life is much happening.
~here I must brieftly describe my 3 pets.
a)Js aka "the watermelon"
He is kind and obedient. Sometimes quite wild but always under control. Most possesive when come to food. Better dun approach him when its meal time or you will get urself injured.
b)Y.Lun aka "Webcammer"
He is of the most vulger-words-spoken type. He like to scold bad words to his master( which mean ME). This bad habit is basically came from his master(Also ME). The most normal pet among 3 because he has not GAY symptom.
c)L.Long aka "LLLL"
He is the most naughty 1. Like to bite things and always give trouble to my neighbours and ME. His food always got stolen by the First(Js) and this has caused him to be the thinnest among all. Unfrtunately, he is also my Dota NOOB captain.

There are alot lot more to say about my hall. But i wanna sleep ler. Catch up with me next time.

Horace

A story that inspired me long time ago.

2009-01-17T06:03:00.000-08:00

Love does not need a reason. NEVER!

~message : One day a girl asked:

Why do you like me?
Why do you love me?
HE answered: I cannot tell the reason but i really like u.
SHE: You cannot even tell me the reason. How can u say u like me?
How can you say u love me?
HE: I really do not know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.
SHE: Proof? NO!
I want you to tell me. My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he love her but not you.
HE: okie okie. Ermmmmm.....
Because u are beautiful
because u are caring
because your voice is sweet
because u are loving
because u are thoughtful
because of your smile
because of your every movement.

~the gal felt so satisfied whit his answer. Unfortunately, after few days later, the girl met with and accident and became comma. He then placed a letter by her side and here is the content of the letter: ~

[
Darling.
because of your sweet voice that i love you
Now can u talk? NO! therefore i cannot love you
because of your care and concern that i love you
Now that u cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you
because of your smile, because of your every movement that i love you
Now can u smile? now can u move?
NO! therefore i cannot love you anymore.

Does love really need a reason? NO!

therefore I still love you.
]

Love does not need a reason.
Sometimes the best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen
Also cannot be touched but can be felt in heart.
Love does not need a reason.
It is something that u can feel burning inside your heart and waiting to be exploded of love.

~horace

Rag experience

2009-01-16T02:04:00.001-08:00

How long since the Rag end? Its been 1 semester and the fridge i bought last semester during rag still in Sean's room( and that fridge cost me 30 bucks). I remembered that I wanted to write a blog for my rag experience and i have never written any until today. I guess now i wont be able to write a blog that might be as elaborating as it suppose to be. Anyway, lets start:

Still remember that when I first joined rag, my motive was to join Sheares Hall. What the fuck should I care about the Rag if it win or not. I don't care. I remembered i came back for Rag in early June 2008. What astonished me was, the Rag that was described as a production that need a lot of man power has only less than 10 people.

"No mood" was what I always felt. Sienx and no motivation as well. Why should I do all this kind of job. I thought the task that i was doing was meant for those construction workers. At that time i wondered- Am I a bangladesh worker? WTF rite?

I was a noob engineer at that time. No 1 guiding us to do the engineering work. I can still remember very well who were there at that time. Only Matt, Sandra, Jung Seong, Wan Sin, Yong Lin and Shida.(maybe i miss out some but i am certain there were less than 10 people)

Soon, some seniors came back and help out. They taught us how to use drills and other power tools as well as how to build some basic structure. That was when i felt engineers are cool. Seniors that came back include Joseph, Chris, Samson, Jung Seong(who dun look like the chairperson because he look so cock (= and also my master Jung Keat, a very annoying person yet very useful and patient in training me as a refined engineer.(by the way, he is a first class honored chemical engineering student :P)

Few weeks later, my boss came back from China. He is Xue Hai( also well known as Hai ge). What a china guy? But at least he is easy to get along. Nice Pr skill but a bit lazy. Working with him is really hard because he speak mandarin that i cannot understand. But what can I do? Time will solve everything. As time goes, finally we can work as a team together with Jung Seong, Shida, Xuda, Ling Xiao and also Xue Hai.

Not forgetting other engineers. There were stories that entertained the rag that time- Qiu Ping who also known as "Hai Mei" was the highlight at that time. A girl as engineer? Thats not something common. She claimed that she is experienced in engineering work. I would say she has got some basic but not to the extend that she can handle big things. (Anyway, she improved a lot and she is one of my engineers this coming Rag)

Also we got Alvin, namely the slacker among engineers. He has been slacking a lot but he is quite helpful when he has the mood(in other words, he always emomo when he came down to help. Dunno if he think the same when I first came here for rag- If I am a worker in construction site?)
Now we are staying together in block C, a place where everyone live like a family. We are in the same dota team mate and also in sheares soccer team this year. YEAH, he is also known as DH(guess u will have to ask lv 2 people to know what is DH). hahah~

Aiks, i am too busy introducing the characters in Rag. After a month in rag, I can feel the sense of belonging to this Hall. The question why everyone is doing this FUCKED UP Rag was finally clarified. Why everyone was so hardworking in finishing the float that will be dismantled right after the 5 minutes performance at the rag day itself?

Here i can answer u guys:
RAG is the PRIDE of SHEARES HALL. We can be fools, but the name of SHEARES HALL shall not belittle. The FLOAT that we build symbolize the name of SHEARES HALL.

Of course we went through a lot of shits throughout the rag, but that's worth it because we gained something that we cannot acquire by money. Something invaluable- Friendship that built, tears that shed and effort spent that pin in mind. All of these will remain forever~

On the Rag day itself, everyone was so tired because we did not finish the float as scheduled. As the result, we work very intensively 1 day before the Rag day. Everyone was so worn out. Also the day before the Rag day, we see the shearites stand together as 1 to finish the float. Its kinda touching if you can witness the scene yourself. We call that spirit "SHEARES SPIRIT".

The final moment reached- 8th August, the Rag day. Everyone gave their best. Dancers dance with passion, logistic push the float and props with spirit and also all the supporters together with SWOC came down to support.

Until the moment when our Hall was called- The emcee announced "We welcome Sheares Hall".
We proudly presented our item to everyone in NUS, with the brand new and courage idea- the band in the music box namely RHAPSODY~

I didn't know what exactly happened because i was the operator for the main float. What I remembered was my heart beat was beating so hard until the performance ended.

I couldn't elaborate very well for every moment happened in Rag because its been quite a while. There are a lot more that I never mention but its fresh inside my mind, like the coffee break, the nipple biting session, OT to finish the main float with Dean and Y.Lin. Those are really memorable.

So this year with the heavy responsibility on hand as C.Engineer, this coming rag will be more exciting and more fulfilling.

Horace~