My respond towards my last blog

Sometimes I just hate to write blog because it represent what I think at this moment. Somehow, I think writing blog can let me view my thinking and my own development from time to time. My blogs are not interesting and sometimes idiotic to read. But I am a fan of my own product. I was energetic and emotional of most time and became calm and tranquil at time just after 2 months. Things can really be chaotic and uncontrollable. So weird..

What I wanted, something that I believe with strong inspiration can be different. That was really something I really do not believe. I doubted myself and sat alone thinking what was actually happening and I sought for answer. As usual answer won't come to me so easily. I need more time and again I believe I need long period to get things under control.

I look around, I see friends who take things for granted and some friends who did not complain even he/she is in really hard situation. Those are not something easily solved problems. But they are taking the problem easy and dealt with them with patience and intelligence. These are something I really need to learn. There are really great people outside, for example my team manager who can multitask and still possessed great E.Q. Seniors who helped us without being asked for and etc.

What I am really feeling now can be related to my first year in University. What I have used to for few years back changed drastically when I moved to next stage. Just like I was very used to my life in my hometown for many years were to changed to a place so strange to me and yet I need to survive alone with all the support and my loved ones not with me. I still remembered that feeling almost put me in hell. Great great depression stacked with the feeling of helpless. For that, I remembered I made a brilliant move and shifted to hall. A place that drag me out of the edge of helplessness. A place where people are so united and helpful. A place where I can apportion my attention to other things and understand there are more to cherish than the sadness that hunted me.

Also there was the place I achieved some success and did some silly mistakes.

I just watched the movie "13 going on 30" and that enlightened me a lot. Remember not to listen to music when one is not in the mood because the lyrics can means more than usual. Lyrics can make someone sad, it is the same to movie. The moral of the movie can bring greater impact than usual. I watched this movie last year and I do not felt I what I feel just now. That was something I knew long ago. I think there are things I need to let go and move on.

Tomorrow will be better =D

Horace

the year of 2011

I have been wanted to write a blog for very long and yet I dun have time to write down. Finally got some time to sit down and write something.

Been graduated 1 month and still finding job. Things seem like not going smoothly but I believe if I dun get nervous sooner or later I will get job. Sometimes my feeling really toy me big time because I dun really wanted to work but playing while everyone doing their stuffs makes me feel useless. I hope things can be much simpler. If things going they way I wanted then I might be working in 2 weeks time. I dun know what is the feeling of earning money because to me spending parents' money has been my culture since I was born.

Still remember last time when I was young, I used to keen in working and earn some money because I can buy things myself. However back in those time, daddy used to disallow me work and further with giving me money if i insisted. I dunno if that was good for me but I definitely enjoyed my life all the way until today in my own way. If only I was allowed to work and learn more than I knew I might not be able to be who I am now. I might be mingled with people that ruin my life, I might look things at different perspective at very young age. NO! I think developing a principle too young might be bad, cos I might be too inexperienced that time and clenching on a not-so-good principle might mold a different Horace. I am still glad to all that happened to me.

I used to shout at my friends and tell them that they are wrong with my limited knowledge and now I still disagree with some of my friends but I dun really tell them and shout at them if not necessary. I find it very annoying when I cannot voice my heart especially to my good friends. They are walking a path that not leading to good, at least that is what I see. I just shut my mouth so that I prevent unwanted situation to occur and I believe all my friends around are showing improvement in their worst sides.

Another thing that really be discussed whole day is when there is a clash in principles. I really think there is not much to be discussed when 2 different people who are holding different conviction are to come to a conclusion points. It will be just a waste of time and furthering this just make a friendship to be worsen. Of course there are few exception like my friends and I. I realized if really there are 1 who can really exchange experience in a peace way, we can understand other more and of course we tolerate more as we know the core reasons for why things happened to him/her or to us.

As for Chinese New Year, things have been very interesting and I enjoyed it a lot. This year with unusual expectation, I am contented with all the activities that was held throughout. No gamble and computer games this year and yet I am busy with activities- from official to unofficial. 1 thing that really make feel extremely satisfied was when KS and me visited WK's house. That freak WK wasn't around and left his parents around in his home. Visiting his parents really enlightened me 2 things. Firstly the real meaning of CNY, that is to visit each other who you think important and secondly to get blessed by them. I was so stupid to believe that CNY is to enjoy ourselves and ignore the rest. Back in last time I used to gamble a lot and spend most of time doing shits. While this year things are really different. Maybe I have played enough and I am finally ready to do things differently.

Hopefully next year CNY we can organize a trip to somewhere with all mt good friends since we can afford the trip. Annual activities seem to be changing gradually and I really do like the changes. People complaint CNY is for children and not for adults. Then I am stupid enough to believe I will be child forever because I dun want to be sad even for a split second. I want to fulfill my dream.

Horace in 11022011
(what a good date =D)

Soon I will be uncle.

My eldest sister is giving birth soon.. I dunno that this feeling can be this great.. I am looking forward to see my niece/nephew.. Of course I am feeling happy for my parents the most.. I can imagine how happy are my parents who will soon be grandpa and grandma..

Raising up children are not easy.. Just looking at myself is already a very good example.. I always give my parents problems up till today... Be is deliberately or accidentally, we are constantly worrying our parents.. I didnt know this feeling till I study oversea.. Staying with parents is simply too nice to be.. We tend to push all the problems to them.. They are more than willing to solve our problems up till we realised that they are not beside us, we will(at least me) start to see how important they are... Just after all the shits they have gone throu they finally receive some awards from their doing.. We son/daughter of our parents are always be their most valuable assets and what make them more rich is when we make them grandpa and grandma..

As much as my parents, I feel great excitement for being part of my sister happiness.. I am looking forward this holiday to see my cute niece/nephew..

People say, when we have our families then we tend to be more mature.. I think I start to understand this throu the fact that I am to be uncle..

Horace... U are promoted..

Guide to the path!!

Like most of the cases, if not handle properly, the consequences can be disastrous. Or sometimes domino effect will follows. I choose to tackle the prob at all will to make sure things doest grow to the extend which is uncontrollable..

Things will be hard but it worth a shot. I will not do the same exact mistakes that I made.. No more costly mistake for me.. I treasure small small things that I have in my life.. It might be so tiny that people dun think they are worthy, but I choose to believe in what I think valuable.

Things will get better if we think positively.. Or more famous known as "good things always follow those who are posimistic".. One important, wrong term I used when I first held a great responsible as C.Engineer..

keep moving,
Horace

I know what I am doing!!

There are always decisions to make, be it a good decision or bad decision.. It does not come with good consequences with good decision and vise versa. I am aware that sometimes decision is very hard to make especially those involve not only ourselves but others. So whenever this situation happens, we are tend to drag and drag or trying our best to make the situation good.. This isnt a bad way to do, however when the outcome is clear, although tough, action must be taken.

I have made a very big decision over one problem that I consider huge. This decision might not seem good for others, but I think for a better future and other aspects this will definitely be best for both parties.. I am a selfish person, I do not want to lose a friend that I cherish so I always do my best to keep them.. This has been my principles of life since I learn friends are one of my most invaluable assets. I want to remember today as one of important dates in my life.. 8/17.

There are plenty of problems for me to tackle because I am at the verge of inter-phase.. Just hope that I will be okie because at this point I am clueless about what I really wanna be..

I believe if we are positive, things will get better.
Horace

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i found out that recently I have always dwell in the past.. Does that considered bad??? I really dunno.. I seldom have heart to heart talk with my all my frens unless they are extremely closed to me.. If I have named them, they will be less than 5 people.. However keeping all secrets to oneself is always a very difficult task.. It felt so uneasy and they just drive u crazy sometimes.. Most of the time, i will choose to handle problems I have alone because I learned that when problems come the best solution is that we can accept them personally.. Frens are truly too important to help us when we are upset.. They are always the key elements that keep us moving...

Try to have no true frens and u know what I mean.. My frens and my family members will always say this to me... "You are lucky because U have bunch of true frens which not everyone will have in their lives. So do not always take them for granted..". Yeah I didnt take them for granted, because I think this happened to me due to my attitude and the way I treat them.. I give my all to people I consider frens tho they are just new frens to me.. treating them nicely might seem to normal, but I treat them with whole-heartedly unless one day they break the trust I have to them.. In other words, from that point onwards they dun deserve my trust and it will be very hard to gain my trust anymore...

I came to understand that there are no easy things in this world.... One might say that, this is a piece of cake... Come on dudes, there are no such thing easy in this world... Try to kick so balls if u are not footballers.. U are gonna pant like u are gonna die... Try to solve some true mathematics questions and U will know that u are so tiny compared to the things U know.. What I am trying to say here is not to encourage u guys to belittle urself instead to know who u are and know where is ur standing.. There is no need to compared urself to others in order to feel comfort because U are doing things for the sake of urself not for OTHER people.. So why so care about others' opinion... I see a lot of people get upset because they got criticized by others or maybe failed to get agreement for what they do.. FUCK OFF man.. this ain't important...

What I wanna say here is to be urself and do not overlap urself to other.. U might get some opinion from others, but the final decision is urs.. Be confident because U can shine others not because U are scared of others... And finally learn to choose ur own path instead of becoming one's shadow... U will never see the light because only the one that leading will face the LIGHT..

stay focused.
Horace

我的恋爱一周年纪念日

今年的二月一日是我和我的女朋友的恋爱一周年纪念日。上完课过后，我就去找她，她很漂亮。




我跟她去吃意大利餐，那里的牛扒很好吃。吃完后，我们去“Clarke Quay"的河边坐。在那儿，我们买了两瓶啤酒。我们一边喝啤酒一边讲话，那个感觉很好。我们在那儿坐到十二点晚上。




然后，我们回到宿舍。我送她一条项链，她送我一个杯子。她说一个杯子是一辈子的意思，我很高兴，我希望我们可以在一起到永远。




new words.
恋爱（lian ai) = love
纪念日(ji nian ri) = anniversary
完 (wan) = finish
过后 (guo hou) = after
牛扒(niu pa) = beef steak
河边 (he bian) = river side
一边 (yi bian) = while
一条项链 (yi tiao xiang lian) = one neklace
一辈子 (yi bei zi) = forever
希望 (xi wang) = hope
永远 (yong yuan) = forever